I admit it, I can let stress get the best of me sometimes! I can have a challenging day at work and take the icky feelings home with me, which continues like a foggy haze throughout the night. I hang onto the “this shouldn’t have happened” or “it’s just not fair” thoughts in my head that cause me to feel down right miserable! Last week I had a string of days like that I just couldn’t let go. I just couldn’t get out from underneath it all.
Then the weekend came. Thank God above for days off. A small, but wonderful event took place that changed my outlook. I was standing in my living room looking out my sliding glass door. I had to smile at my husband snoozing in the sun in his lawn chair. I was in the house, holding my granddaughter, Katie, and listening to soft music on Pandora. She was looking around the room as I rocked her to the music. I looked down and saw that she fell asleep with her little head on my chest. My heart just melted as I looked at her sweet face and felt her love and trust. That has got to be one of the best feelings in my life time.
Such peace.
My ears caught the sounds of the song playing in the background & realized it was Carrie Underwood’s song, ”So Small”. I don’t know if I have ever really listened to the words before, but they were perfect in the moment. The chorus is:
‘Cause sometimes that mountain you’ve been climbing is just a grain of sand
What you’ve been up there searching for
forever is in your hands.
When you figure out love is all that matters after all,
It sure makes everything else seem so small”.
In that moment I saw life in a different perspective. What I keep searching for, I already have ~ love, health and my precious family. When I think of these blessings, all of the stressors from earlier in the week just fall away. Sometimes it seems like I have mountains to climb, but when I really look at them through the eyes of love, they fade into the distance.
I’m setting the intention to notice what’s really important in life. It’s not to set my eyes on the drudgery of another work day, not at all! It’s to say that “hey, I am alive. I get to play another day. How can I use my heartfelt energy to make a difference?” I’m going to notice that even on stressful cloudy days, there are brilliant colors flowing in between.
