I went on an Alaskan cruise a few weeks ago with my husband. It was a dream vacation; a time of play, rest, fun and togetherness. It’s funny in a way, but to me it wasn’t just a vacation; it was the realization of dreams, overcoming some fears, and learning to let go. Over the next few weeks I’d love to explore these thoughts in this blog.
First for the realization of dreams…..
A grew up in a family that didn’t have much money. I think that sometimes my mom had to look for money just to buy food. I don’t know if she even ventured to have a dream of a cruise, she was happy just getting a day off to go to the beach. She passed away many years ago.
I know that I didn’t allow myself to have dreams of such extravagant trips; it was a foreign thought. As I grew up and learned to believe in myself, I let go of my fears of dreaming. I allowed myself to daydream, pray and plan that my dreams would happen. I found this adventurous spirit that yearned for play, adventure and just plain fun. That spirit wants to thrive! It’s exciting to see my dreams come true, both tiny and big. I also love to listen to other people talk about their own dreams. It brings out the sparkle in their eyes.
On the cruise, as I was standing in my balcony window overlooking the Pacific ocean, I thought of my mom. I had a pang of sadness as I wished she were there to share it with me. Then I felt a sense of peace. I knew that she was with me in spirit; I could feel it. I looked up at the sky and said, “look mama how beautiful it is”. I do believe in miracles and in heaven. In that moment the thought came to me, “It’s alright. The vast beauty that she’s witnessing now is more than I could ever imagine“.
Maybe she never had dreams or maybe she was afraid to speak of them. But in that moment, I just knew that I was right where I was supposed to be sharing it with her.
