Thank you Oprah’s life class! I was moments away from going into the kitchen to snack, that’s how I have dealt with things lately, eating to cope with life stressers.
I turned on my tv at 8:00 pm and listened to Oprah’s words and I swear she was talking to me!
“Only I am responsible for me. I am the only one that can bring on change in my life. Only I can move my life forward. I have been waiting for a divine miracle…God has been waiting on me.”
Words I needed to hear as I am back into my unhealthy eating pattern. I have put on weight and it doesn’t feel good. I almost didn’t write this, but change can’t come about when hidden in secret. Here I am a life coach helping other’s with their goals, yet I find myself stuck in the muck myself. I have been so busy with work, coaching and life, but not paying attention to my own body and soul. Yes, I do know better, but I turned my back on myself. I allowed the eating disordered thinking to creep back into my life, instead of keeping my recovery first.
There was a man on the Oprah Life class tonight that had weighed over 700 pounds before he set out on a weight loss venture. He began eating less food, making healthier choices and working out at the gym. Just watching this very large man going to a gym was humbling to me. He was battling for his life. He even began to lead a water aerobics class. Then he lost part of his foot to diabetes and he still kept it up. He had lost close to 200 pounds and is still going. Wow! He took responsibility for himself. He refused to wait around in the confines of his house any longer. He was moving his life forward.
I am going to go back to the basics as I was taught by my own life coaches; work on my limiting thoughts, feel my feelings and not stuff them down, listen to my hunger and fullness, and take one day, one hour, one meal at a time. I will also “tune in” to my intuition and what my soul is telling me.
I love the prayer “God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference”.
I can never ever be perfect and I don’t want to be. I do want to be healthy and feel good in my body. I want to honor my body giving it the respect that it deserves.
One thing that I can say is that I am right in there with all of you that struggle with your weight and the war within. We are all responsible for ourselves. No one is going to rescue us ~ we have the power to bring on the change that we want in our lives. Our coaches and mentors can guide us, but we need to do the work.
